RESPONSIBILITY

I have to ask myself ...
Are there people who take advantage of me?
Do they cross boundaries I never fully or boldly expressed?
Do I expect people to read my mind because they SHOULD know me by now or because there is some invisible code of ethics I expect everyone to follow or know?
Do I lovingly and clearly express my triggers and how those cause me to withhold attention, affection, & trust for others?

I have to keep in mind that I have TAUGHT other's how to treat me ... I have helped CREATE the situations I am in -- good and bad ... and it will take some TIME coupled with some DISCOMFORT to re-train those around me in loving and vulnerable ways.

If I blame those around me for my discomfort, for my broken marriage, for my martyr position, for my sadness, for my loss, for my heartache, for my mind blocks - I give them all power over my life - I lay down in victimization & wait on THEM to make it different. If I own up to and take responsibility for the passive-aggressive or manipulative behaviors I employed to survive the madness or to get what I wanted/needed, then I CAN CHANGE THE SITUATION BY CHANGING HOW I THINK / BEHAVE ... and in turn will employ AUTHENTIC value to my situations.

With authenticity and vulnerability and self-care ... my whole world changes.  I no longer live FOR people, I live for TRUTH.

LIVE FOR TRUTH ladies & gentlemen.

Love you,
Alli