INTEGRITY

INTEGRATE - To combine parts so they become whole. 
DISINTEGRATE - To weaken by coming apart. 

INTEGRITY - TO COMBINE MY ACTIONS & MY WORDS SO THEY BECOME THE SAME
DISINTEGRATE - WHEN I LACK INTEGRITY, MY LIFE WEAKENS OR COMES APART.

... when I say or do things I either don't believe in or care for but I go through such motions because it buys me a means to an often subconscious selfish gain (saving of face, avoiding responsibility, etc.). For instance; If I tell someone that I will do something so that they will not get upset with or think poorly of me and then I carry around resentment because I never really wanted to do it in the first place, but I lacked the courage to just be honest.  This is an example of lying to myself and others, and the inevitable resentment or victimization I carry around weakens my power strips me of my FREEDOM and my PEACE.  

I have found that my life will almost always disintegrate when I lie ... to myself or others ... no matter the 'honorable good' behind my lies.  It will all eventually come apart.  I have to let go of my control over every situation, get REAL about what I want, what I can do, what I won't do, what I feel anxiety about, etc. My desire to control other's perceptions of me, outcomes, reactions, responses, other's happiness or their lack of it; I have to let go of all that I hold onto to find my heart. (<--- that's a link peeps, CLICK ON IT)  It is within the confines of my heart that my truth exists.  When I deny my truth it ALWAYS seeps out ... it seeps out sometimes in resentment or tears, manipulation or passive-aggressiveness, sarcasm or stress, depression or anxiety - it always finds a way - the heart ALWAYS overrides the head with physical reactions of one form or another.  

Today I challenge you to be HONEST in all that you say and do ... to bring INTEGRITY into your life, which ultimately brings tranquility, peace, freedom & contentment. 

LIVE FOR TRUTH, CREATE INTEGRITY. 

Love you, 
Alli

VULNERABILITY

When I tell people of my vulnerabilities I open the door for them to share theirs ... and when those things are shared, connections are made ... and with connections comes trust & strength & the most stupendous freedom from my past ... because I quickly realize I'm not much different from the other kids who were wounded unfairly ... 

My vulnerability lends me the self-awareness & the courage to help others see that the hiding of secrets behind walls of stoic faces or masks of composure is far more confining 

that simply setting such burdens free.  

TRUE strength is in your VULNERABILITY, not in your ability to bite a bullet & hide in fraud.

I love you all, 

BE VULNERABLE, it is the most beautiful & courageous crown you wear. 

~ Alli 

"How strange that we should ordinarily feel compelled to hide our wounds when we are all wounded! Community requires the ability to expose our wounds and weaknesses to our fellow creatures.  It also requres the ability to be affected by the wounds of others ... but even more important is the love that arises amoung us when we share, both ways, our woundedness." - M. Scott Peck